Midnight and Mistletoe At Cedarwood Lodge Page 9

  “Good, good,” we said. Mom and I had been working beside each other in perfect synchronization, there’d been no tension over Isla’s discovery of the maze, and no real mention of her phone call to me about it, and I was hoping this was a good step forward. Maybe she would show me the maze herself, of her own free will.

  Aunt Bessie put some groceries in Mom’s fridge, including the obligatory box of donuts. She gave me an encouraging smile and double-checked the cubes I’d cut. Then she opened the oven and lifted the foil off Mom’s chicken dish. “Annabelle, what’s this?” she asked. “I thought you were doing the basil lemon chicken recipe I sent over?”

  Mom stared at her. “I am.”

  Aunt Bessie’s mouth opened and closed like a guppy. “Did you read the recipe?”

  Mom folded her arms across her chest. “I’m not completely hopeless, you know. Of course I read the recipe. What are you like?”

  With a dramatic sigh Aunt Bessie took the tray from the oven and ripped off the foil. “That recipe called for a whole chicken. Not teeny tiny pieces like this. You’ve gone and made cardboard out of it.”

  It was Mom’s turn to do the guppy impression. “Chicken is chicken.”

  Aunt Bessie hooted. “No, chicken isn’t chicken, Annabelle. Right, well, there’s nothing we can do with this, so let’s see what we can salvage out of the fridge.” She rummaged around, mumbling to herself before closing the fridge door.

  “OK, we’re going out. Get your coats. We’ll have burgers and beers at Shakin’ Shack and I don’t want to hear any excuses.”

  I waited a beat. Waited for Mom to refuse point blank. We’d made it through Christmas, but even that had been a huge step for Mom. Going out to a restaurant… Instead Mom took the tray from the bench and tipped the cardboard chicken into the bin. “Well sure, but I can’t leave the kitchen like this,” Mom said.

  I suppressed a victorious smile. “We’ll clean up now, Mom, all of us, and then we’ll go.”

  There was no way Mom could leave the cottage if her kitchen was untidy, she’d never be able to relax, and this was a big step for her, so we all bustled around, tidying as quickly as we could in case she changed her mind. When Mom put the trash bag in the outdoor bin, Aunt Bessie whispered, “I didn’t think she’d say yes!”

  “When was the last time she went out to town for dinner?” I whispered, still surprised.

  “Decades ago.”

  I nodded, “OK, let’s make it a really fun night.”

  This was one gigantic Neil Armstrong kind of leap forward. We were getting closer to that sitcom mother and daughter vision I’d always had. I knew it could all crumble when she visited Cedarwood and set eyes on the maze again but maybe she wanted to be free of the shackles of her past too.

  Turning back to Aunt Bessie I wound my scarf around my neck. “How’s your Instagram account going?”

  Aunt Bessie’s eyes shone, and she grabbed her cell from her bag. “Oh, Clio, it’s one of the best things I’ve ever done. I borrowed one of those Social Media for Dummies books and worked out how to ramp up my followers. I’ve been getting orders from all over the country, but are you ready for the kicker?”

  “Yes.”

  “Helena from America Today re-grammed my death-by-chocolate donut tower, you know the one – thirty-six chocolate ganache-filled donuts stuck together with dark chocolate icing, and topped with shards of toffee and spun sugar.”

  “Yes, I know the one!” I exclaimed, amazed at how far Aunt Bessie had come in a matter of days.

  “Well anyway, she got thousands of comments from her followers and I mean thousands, Clio.” Aunt Bessie’s cheeks pinked with happiness. “So she asked me to come on the show and do a baking demonstration. I was waiting until dinner to tell you and Annabelle all about it.”

  With a shaky hand Aunt Bessie held up her phone and showed me Helena’s re-gram of the spectacular donut tower, and sure enough, there were thousands of comments underneath the picture. “Oh, my god, Aunt Bessie, that is incredible!”

  “I know, I know! I couldn’t believe it. Now what do you think I should wear on the show? My tastes might be a little outlandish for primetime morning TV.” Her eyebrows pulled together.

  “I think you’re perfect the way you are, Aunt Bessie, especially for primetime TV. Why don’t you wear the cobalt blue pant suit? Your scarlet lipstick goes perfectly with that color.”

  “OK,” she said, grinning. “I do love that suit.”

  “My aunt the celebrity.”

  Mom wandered back in so we turned away from each other, and finished cleaning the rest of the kitchen in companionable silence.

  ***

  Later that night, I was back in the office, smiling like a loon. Not only had Mom had dinner out for the first time in years, she’d agreed to visit Cedarwood and show me the maze. Then I’d returned home to a flurry of emails about potential spring accommodation bookings at the lodge. At the rate we were going I’d have to employ Cruz to cook full-time. And really, we needed someone to handle the guest activities too.

  Isla had been flitting from job to job as we needed her, but once spring had sprung she’d have her work cut out for her managing the expansive gardens alone.

  While I was adding another role to our list of job vacancies that needed filling Amory came in carrying two cups of cocoa. “Can’t sleep?” I asked, noting that it was almost midnight.

  She shook her head, handing me a mug. “We haven’t had two seconds to talk lately and I’m bursting with news. We rented the cottage! Oh it’s the loveliest place just outside of Evergreen. It’s tiny but cozy, and I’m so looking forward to decorating it.”

  “That’s great news, Amory! I’ll miss you, even though I spend my life taking your empty coffee cups back into the kitchen,” I said, just as Scotty came barreling in looking for hugs. I’d miss him too, with his boundless energy and soft cuddles.

  “Oh, darling that won’t change. I’ll still leave them scattered about during the day, so it will give you something to do at night.”

  “You’re a true friend.” I laughed and filled Amory in on dinner with Mom, and the latest bunch of emails and what was left to do for the party.

  “Amazing, Clio! I’ve got a feeling things are going to be hectic over summer.” She gave me a smile. “Oh, that reminds me. Tim called while you were out, and wants you to call him back.”

  I blew out a breath. “What now?”

  She shook her head. “I don’t know, he didn’t say why, but the whole time we were looking at cottages all he did was talk about you.”

  “What did he say?”

  She sipped her cocoa. “Well, it was like a celebrity tour of town. This is where Clio and I used to buy tapes. This is where we kissed in the rain. This is where I asked her to the prom. It was sweet and all, but me thinks the boy has not moved on.”

  I grimaced. “That’s a little awkward. He is so lovely, seriously, but I just don’t feel that connection. And I wonder if he does either, or he’s just remembering a time in our lives when things were simpler, you know? Like slipping into your oldest most comfortable jeans…”

  The old lodge creaked and groaned like it was agreeing with me. “Yeah, and first love does leave a sort of fingerprint on your heart.”

  I raised a brow. “Wow, Amory, how poetic of you… she of the steely-heart non-soppy love club.”

  “The what club?” she laughed, and shook her head. “Anyway, did I see Kai wander downstairs from your suite?”

  I scoffed. “As if you’d have seen anything, you would have been in the land of Zeds. Got spies have you?”

  “Of course! Cruz told me! So you admit it? What the hell is going on, darling? Some best friend you are, who keeps all the good stuff under lock and key!”

  I shrugged. “We just had one of those long, deep and meaningful conversations, putting the world to rights, that kind of thing, and then we fell asleep. It was nice.”

  She
stared me down. “Nice? Just nice, darling?”

  “Nice.”

  “Nice is a sleep in after too much champagne, nice is breakfast in bed, nice is…”

  I clucked my tongue. “I get it! OK, OK, it was amazing. Totally amazing. Something has changed and I’m ready, I think… you know, to admit it first. But he leaves in a few days…”

  “He’s due to depart in a few days. Whether he leaves or not is surely up to you and him?”

  “But he has to go back to work. And I would hazard a guess it won’t be long before he heads back to Australia for good, once things are sorted with his family. Why start something and get my heart ripped apart when he moves back to his beachside lifestyle… I’ll be a distant memory, the pale-faced girl wearing fur, when he’ll be around all the sun-kissed girls in bikinis…”

  With an exasperated sigh Amory said, “Stop imagining the worst, darling! As far as I can tell he’s got no inclination to go home, but you’re not exactly giving him a reason to stay by not admitting how you feel, are you? He probably thinks you’re only kissing him when you’re bored or something, because afterwards you act like it hasn’t happened! You need him for the chalets. Ned practically insisted.” At the confused look in my eyes she sighed, “Ned’s report said that you need a registered builder here during the chalet refurbishments, no ‘maybe’ about it. And Timothy mentioned that there’s a ton of building work going in the next town over. So… what this means is if you really wanted it to happen, it could happen. Stop making excuses, Clio. Stop hiding. Really.”

  I tapped my pen against the desk, glad she didn’t push any more. “Imagine if he stayed.”

  She waggled her eyebrows and hummed the wedding march, just as Kai walked in. I blushed furiously. How many people were up at midnight around here! Quickly I said, “So yeah, we need to order those martini glasses, and…”

  “On to it,” she said with a smirk, “I better go to my office and get that done straight away. It’s totally soundproof when I shut the door. Which is good. Means I can concentrate. Gotta love a big oak door, don’t make ‘em like that any more. Can’t hear a peep.” She leaped up and made for the door, “Come on Scotty, we’d better leave these two alone…”

  I made faces behind Kai’s back for her to shut the hell up as the puppy raced to her side. He turned and caught me waving frantically at her to leave. I snatched my arms back and pasted on a smile. “Numb fingers,” I motioned to my hand. “So much writing. So many to-do lists. Really, I should probably type them.” I was rambling, Amory was rambling, the whole situation was too slapstick to be believed.

  Kai gave us both polite smiles and we paused.

  “Toodles!” Amory said and waltzed out the room with the puppy under her arm.

  Toodles? Kill me! “Sit down,” I said. “If you want.” Gah.

  “Sorry about the late night disturbance, but my boss called. He wants me to head back as soon as possible. I tried to put him off, but he really needs me back, more contracts have arrived. No rest for the wicked, hey?”

  My heart fell. Plummeted, even. What horrible timing. Just as I’d built up the courage to say something. Was it even worth the risk…? How long would it be before his parents called him back, or he craved the Australian sunshine, the beach culture? “I don’t want you to go,” I said suddenly, the words escaping before I could stop them.

  He stared at me and I hoped he’d read between the lines. Did I have to spell it out? “Really, Kai. I don’t want you to go.”

  “I’ll fly back to Cedarwood when I can,” he said hurriedly, “and help with Ned when the chalet renovations start in earnest. Micah knows the plan and I can keep Ned sweet with phone calls, and lots of talk about meeting code, and…”

  I swallowed panic. It was now or never, and I sent up a silent prayer to the universe that he wouldn’t laugh in my face. “Kai, stop. I don’t care about the chalets, the code, or Ned. I care about you. The reason I want you to stay is…” Why was it so hard to say how I felt? “… the thought of you leaving depresses me. When you’re gone, I feel like a piece of my heart is missing. Even though we lead two very different lives, and you may leave the US for good… I want you to know I have feelings for you…” Heat rushed to my face and my hands shook. There, I’d said it. It was almost a relief, until I realized he hadn’t said a word.

  “Clio…” he breathed, and without giving him a chance to say anything more I pulled him forward into a kiss and put everything I had into it. I didn’t want him to leave without knowing how I felt. It was damn good to be honest with him – and honest with myself too. I’d spent the better part of my life hiding from my feelings, so panicked about possible rejection that I hadn’t really been living, maybe only living vicariously through the brides-to-be I planned weddings for. Well, that had to stop. It was time for me to be just as ambitious with my love life as I was with my career…

  Chapter Eleven

  The next morning I was lolling in bed replaying my confession to Kai and coming to the horrible realization that he hadn’t exactly reciprocated with the whole sharing-your-feelings thing. Sure, I didn’t really give him a chance, instead choosing to lock lips with him, but how did he feel in return? Would he leave in the early hours of the morning, avoiding a goodbye again? Surely not this time, after I’d opened up to him. This was why I tended to avoid romance, it was so damn messy and complicated. But oh so rewarding when a man could kiss the way Kai could and make you forget about the world around you.

  Rolling out of bed to start the day I jumped as the phone rang. “Cedarwood Lodge,” I made my voice bright, even though it was a little early for phone calls and I hadn’t even had any caffeine yet. I went to the bay window, catching sight of Kai as he headed to the chalets, wearing his tool belt. He was still here, then. My heart fluttered at the sight of him.

  “Clio! It’s Tim, have I caught you at a bad time?” I wrenched my gaze away from the window and traipsed downstairs, wondering why Tim needed me so damn early in the morning. “It’s OK, Tim. I’m just about to make coffee.”

  “Still have it black with no sugar?”

  I smiled, amused he remembered. My head was still so full of last night with Kai I needed a double shot of caffeine to get my brain into full-on party-planner mode. I shook Kai daydream away, and focused on the call. “Still the very same. What about you? Milky white with two sugars?”

  He laughed. “No sugar these days. Life is so boring when you’re an adult!”

  When we were younger we’d had plenty of study sessions, cramming for exams, wired on so much coffee. The good old days when life was simple.

  “What can I do for you, Tim?” I asked, pulling down a mug and reaching over for the coffee pot. Cruz must’ve been up already and brewed an extra-large jug for us, knowing that between me and Amory we’d guzzle it down like water.

  “Just confirming that you received my email about the jazz band?” The string quartet had been canned and we’d chosen a jazz band to fit the Gatsby theme instead.

  “Yes, I did. All booked and confirmed.” Was he not getting my replies? I’d definitely emailed him straight back.

  “That’s good to hear,” he said, his voice suddenly wistful. “What about the fireworks? Did the company return your call?”

  Had they? I struggled to remember un-caffeinated. Between us, Amory handled some of the suppliers, and I handled the rest. “I’ll have to double-check with Amory, I think she was pushing for silent fireworks so we don’t upset the animal life around Cedarwood, but still have the wow factor from the colors and patterns.” Proud puppy owner Amory had definitely changed her attitude since becoming a canine mom.

  “OK, that makes sense. Let me know?”

  “Sure, I’ll send you an email as soon as I find out.”

  “Just call me, Clio. It’s easier when I’m out and about with clients.”

  I frowned. Maybe he was simply nervous because there was so much hanging in the balance, and wanted the
party to go off without a hitch. We all did. “OK. I’ll call you as soon as I talk to Amory.”

  We hung up and I took a sip of my coffee, feeling it work its magic through my bloodstream. I checked my sent emails, and found I had sent all of the confirmation emails to Tim, and there was also one from Amory CC-ing me about the fireworks, which had been booked and were silent for the sake of the animals. Was it a technical glitch? Or was he making excuses to call me? After what Amory had said last night about Tim, I was beginning to wonder…

  ***

  I stepped out the front door and headed in the direction of the chalets, but froze in shock as Mom’s red hatchback turned into the driveway. We’d agreed she’d visit and we’d go to the maze, but I didn’t think she’d actually turn up. I’d honestly thought she’d renege, or make up some flimsy excuse.

  Watching her exit the car, she looked every bit her age today, and I knew this visit cost her. She held the driver’s door for a moment, and looked in the direction of the woods. Hanging her head low, she shut it with a bang, and made her way inside.

  “Mom, you came,” I said, going towards her and enveloping her in a hug, hoping it would help restore her.

  She gave me a wobbly smile and nodded.

  “Are you sure about this?” Now it was time to confront the past, I wasn’t sure it was such a good idea. She was so thin, so fragile, I didn’t want to lose her again now we’d come so far.

  With a shuddery breath she said, “I’m sure, Clio. Let me show you my maze, my downfall.”

  I grabbed my coat and gloves, and gave Mom another wooly scarf.

  We headed towards the woods, head bent against the sheeting winds. It was a long trek, and probably one of the reasons I’d never found the maze as a child. I’d been scared of the woods, and wouldn’t have ventured too far in for fear I’d get lost. Micah had preferred running up the mountains, and that had been that.

  “Did you design the maze?” I asked, hoping that a bit of conversation would help.

  She nodded as we trudged through copses of trees, thrust into shadows.